Agony
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I love this country. I always have. When I travel abroad, it is only a greater love I feel when I return. But, America, where is your courage? We may be the land of the brave but we have lost our courage. The words are used interchangeably, but they are not the same. Brave is…
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Reflection — what better way to start a week. Join the conversation about not finding the hope and strength you need at your local church. If your church does not support your healing, FIND A NEW CHURCH.
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Reflection — what better way to start a week. Food, booze, pills, gambling, shopping — you name it. It’s how we get through. If there were someone that said they have no coping mechanisms, would you believe them? I wish I had none. I wish my past was easy. I wish my children hadn’t endured…
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Reflection — what better way to start a week. Anguish is pain that cannot be quenched. Anguish seeks its own desire — it wants the pain to stop. Anguish has an unrelenting voice of frustration against the lack of justice. Anguish is its name. The dark fury that rises from pain. Pain that began in…
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On the discussion of fear, do you fear rejection? Loneliness envelops the person that has been rejected. Light shines dimly from the eyes. The soul mocks the inability to breathe. Oh, rejection, I have known you well. What is abuse if not the severest form of rejection? Jesus knew rejection. It’s pain leaves you disabled…
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May I first extend my prayer of love to you. I have known better the dread of Father’s Day than I have known anything else. I hate both Mother’s Day and Father’s Day, but I always try to unlearn and retrain myself. The kindest gift my earthy father ever gave me was his death. His…
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I can have anger and not hate. I can love and not forgive. I can forgive and leave. The older I get the more I realize that life is about balance. Coming thru such severe childhood trauma I often get stuck in an off-balance kind of place — everything is good or everything is bad.…
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Pain and fear are two separate things. I can fear pain, pain can create fear, but they are separate. Pain and fear have been in my life longer than anything else. Love and living a pain-free live — that’s relatively new. Comfort has a few definitions: One comfort is for our flesh and bones. The…
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Tears have streamed down my face as I’ve been offered let down after let down in life. Example: My oldest daughter is hit in the face by her father. The police come and arrest him. During the interview, she tells the police officer and later child protective services that her father sexually abused her. Outcome:…
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Childhood sexual abuse sucks the life from your bones. It lives under cover but it’s current is strong. The devastation it leaves in the children who are now grown is a brutal reality of what happened yesterday. You can run from it, but I guarantee you — you can’t hide. That is just the truth…