You Didn’t Do Anything Wrong

Don’t children often blame themselves? Coming through abuse I not only blamed myself, but surmised I wasn’t worth very much. I couldn’t be and be treated the way I was treated. What value did I have? Very little. Was I valued because I was born? Did I find worth in my parents’ eyes because IContinue reading “You Didn’t Do Anything Wrong”

Idle Hands

Childhood tragedy has wreaked havoc on my nervous system. My shoulders stay tense and my mind constantly active. Staying busy has helped. Sometimes, I move too much. I have a lot of energy — or angst. Angst is defined as, “a feeling of deep anxiety or dread, typically an unfocused one about the human conditionContinue reading “Idle Hands”

Teach

Teach the young the lessons you’ve learned, Tell them the scars you carry. Absolve and comfort them with each grief you’ve had, So they learn the ways and which ones to bury. Carry on with strength and dignity, Believing in yourself and the hope of each new day. Tell them the scars you carry, ForContinue reading “Teach”

The Rock

You can do a lot of things with a rock. What comes to your mind? What comes to my mind is you can bury a body under a rock. Placing a body underneath the weight of a stone leaves it almost unrenderable – undetected with the natural eye. Do you know why a body willContinue reading “The Rock”

Rolling Stones Don’t Collect Moss

A rolling stone gathers no moss is an old proverb, credited to Publilius Syrus. A common modern meaning is that a person must stay active to avoid stagnation. Sometimes my heart questions my inability to make peace with my abusers. I hear stories of restoration from some through forgiveness and love. I believe these stories toContinue reading “Rolling Stones Don’t Collect Moss”

Don’t Let Anyone Take You Hostage

You have trusted in your wickedness    and have said, ‘No one sees me.’Your wisdom and knowledge mislead you    when you say to yourself,    ‘I am, and there is none besides me.’ Isaiah 47:8 When my father died, I am told that he let out two great big terrifying screams. I had just left him hours earlier and knew I wouldn’t beContinue reading “Don’t Let Anyone Take You Hostage”

Discretionary Fools

At their own peril, predators believe that their lies will be kept hidden forever. One of the vilest results of sexual abuse is how it deceives and confuses those who are victims, as well as those who are perpetrators or silent witnesses. It deadens the ability to discern good from evil. It confuses the mindContinue reading “Discretionary Fools”