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A Jewel: Have you ever played the game “would you rather?” Would you rather be in a room full of snakes or spiders? That game! I have played that game with my past.
Would I rather be raped as a child or watch the rape and murder of another human being?
I can answer that: I’d rather watch another human be raped and murdered than be raped as a child.
Does that surprise you? My childhood rapes, and there were many, were acts against me. A full on assault of my little, tiny body. The pain was intense. The pain continued in my teens years. There was never NOT pain in the middle region of my body. Today, I’ve had full hip replacement and my back is damaged. Was this a result of all the attacks my body took through my formative years? I don’t know. But, I do know this. Watching a woman be raped and murdered was brutal. It has given me nightmares for most of my life.
I would still choose that experience over the childhood sexual assaults.
Gem: My body does not belong to any of the persons who made claim to it. My body does not belong to the many memories of the assaults I lived through. My body belongs to no one but me. I now choose what I do with it and that’s a big responsibility.
Metaphorical Gunpowder: I recognize the voices in my head that are the enemies of my past — and I speak to you: “your rejection, your pride, your sense of believing that you won because you are not in prison — I silence your ugly, disguisting tone. Be gone in the name of Jesus!” Amen
All Love!
Please comment below by leaving your jewel, a gem or something you keep yourself free from with metaphorical gunpowder.
All love!
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