accountability
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The closer I draw near to Jesus, the more embarrassed I am by the things I once called freedom. I spent years mistaking chaos for creativity. I thought intensity meant depth. I thought wreckage was proof I was alive. That’s what childhood teaches you when love is unstable and safety is conditional. You learn to…
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Oh God, the one who hears the small and voiceless, the one who spins the wind into hymns— do you see the bruises pressed into their silence? Do you touch the aching marrow of those who could not save themselves? The children cry in muffled tones, their voices swallowed whole by shadows. Their hands, once…
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I hated discipline. Every form of it. Until I learned that disciple is not punishment. Growing up we were punished for every slight infraction we made in my father’s kingdom. If you spoke or behaved inappropriately, a leather belt was waiting to connect with your raw skin. Any infraction, after he delivered his punishment, was…
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Oh God, the one who hears the small and voiceless, the one who spins the wind into hymns— do you see the bruises pressed into their silence? Do you touch the aching marrow of those who could not save themselves? The children cry in muffled tones, their voices swallowed whole by shadows. Their hands, once…
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Growing up, many of us were taught that love is unconditional and nurturing. However, for those who experienced toxic or abusive parenting, love often came with conditions, expectations, and performances that were anything but peaceful. Performative love is a haunting legacy of childhood spent in cycles of abuse, where affection was contingent on compliance and…
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I hated discipline. Every form of it. Until I learned that disciple is not punishment. Growing up we were punished for every slight infraction we made in my father’s kingdom. If you spoke or behaved inappropriately, a leather belt was waiting to connect with your raw skin. Any infraction, after he delivered his punishment, was…
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On the discussion of fear, I have a very healthy fear for those that delight in wrongdoing. Trust me when I say that there are many who like their choices of bad. They have no guilt but actually take pleasure in bringing and giving pain. Fear these folks! Nuff said.
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On the discussion of fear, I often wonder what I have hidden in the recesses of my heart. A treacherous beginning in childhood left caverns of unknowns locked away in me and I’ve been searching for them ever since. They are hard to locate later in life. Jesus had an interesting conversation about the “heart”…
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On the discussion of fear, do you have a good fear of religious people? If you don’t — you should. Paul warned the Colossians about such people when he said, “I tell you this so that no one may deceive you by fine-sounding arguments.” From BibRef, “The Greek word Paul uses is paralogizētai, which means “to…
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On the discussion of fear, do you have a healthy fear of spending all your time seeking pleasure? I grew up in our house on Delaware Lane for the first four years of my life. My father had full reign to exercise his demonic desires of pedophilia whenever he wanted. It was an absolute free…