Throughout much of my life, I’ve grappled with these questions: Where is God in the midst of abuse? What is He doing while it unfolds? What thoughts and feelings does He have?
I heard someone describe it once in two words: God weeps.
This is what He is doing, this is what He is thinking and this is what He is feeling. He is weeping. He is weeping for His precious children. He was weeping for you. For me.
If I could go back and tell my younger self anything, I would tell myself that God was weeping for my pain.
I used to wonder, could I have done something to prevent it? Why did this happen to me? Was it my fault? Should I have fought back more vigorously? Perhaps it happened because I was weak, if only I had been stronger. Maybe it was because I was bad?
It’s normal to have these thoughts initially. My doctor used to say that such a response was only natural. But it’s crucial to recognize these thoughts for what they are:
LIES.
These are nothing but lies, from the king of evil. The devil. And we need to recognize that so we don’t dwell on it. What I have learned in my journey of healing is that God gives us free will and while He doesn’t will evil to happen, He allows it because He will not take away our free will. It is up to us to decide how we will use this gift He has given to us, some use it to harm others (abuse) others for good. While abuse is always evil, that doesn’t mean God doesn’t love you. Because God has given us free will, He could not physically stop your abuser from hurting you, because that would have been going against His very nature as God.
And I want to challenge you to bring abuse to the light. The horrific evil of abuse must be exposed and not remain hidden in the dark. It must be brought to the light, no matter how hard that is. Left in the dark, it festers and becomes an uncontrollable monster.
Because in the end, a person can either own the abuse or it will own you. And this is why abuse is oftentimes generational, because it becomes a learned pattern – to abuse or accept abuse.
But the time is now to fight for freedom. To fight for your recovery to fight for your future. The only person that can change your future is you.
You are stronger than what happened to you.
B 🤍
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