Introspection — what better way to start a week.
Question: Does my past abuse, and the actions of survival and sin I’ve done since, make me too bad for a relationship with God?
Children have a hard time making a distinction between themselves and thier parents. God does not. The actions and sins of another person are outside of you — they are not you. Their sin does not encode your body with their crimes but they would like you to believe it does. God would not allow that. Our minds are confused at times but you can be sure that their acts of sexual crimes are not yours to own.
What we do as we grow to cope I know God understands the whole story — far better than we do. I masturbated in my parents’ home because sexuality had been aroused in me. My parents had their sexual thoughts at our breakfast table, in the bathroom, in the bedrooms and anywhere else they wanted. Those acts do not make me bad. It was thier spirits that chose. It was their sins and the consequences remain on them.
If I can see myself separated from them, the decisions and distinctions I make in life become easier. When I remain commingled with them, the intertwining remains. You can even remove yourself from them and still carry their spirit(s) with you.
So, back to question, “am I good enough for a relationship with God?” The answer is a resounding “YES!”
When you come before the throne of God it is a relationship between you and him. Not you, him and your abusers. You are not responsible for your abusers you are only responsible for yourself. Their detestable actions are not yours to own.
Ask yourself this question: If I untangled myself completely from the complicity (the state of being involved) with my abusers’ crimes, how do I see myself now?
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